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LET us go then, you and I, |
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When the evening is spread out against the sky |
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Like a patient etherized upon a table; |
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Let us go, through certain half-deserted streets, |
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The muttering retreats |
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Of restless nights in one-night cheap hotels |
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And sawdust restaurants with oyster-shells: |
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Streets that follow like a tedious argument |
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Of insidious intent |
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To lead you to an overwhelming question…. |
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Oh, do not ask, “What is it?” |
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Let us go and make our visit. |
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In the room the women come and go |
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Talking of Michelangelo. |
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The yellow fog that rubs its back upon the window-panes, |
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The yellow smoke that rubs its muzzle on the window-panes |
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Licked its tongue into the corners of the evening, |
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Lingered upon the pools that stand in drains, |
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Let fall upon its back the soot that falls from chimneys, |
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Slipped by the terrace, made a sudden leap, |
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And seeing that it was a soft October night, |
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Curled once about the house, and fell asleep. |
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And indeed there will be time |
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For the yellow smoke that slides along the street, |
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Rubbing its back upon the window panes; |
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There will be time, there will be time |
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To prepare a face to meet the faces that you meet; |
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There will be time to murder and create, |
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And time for all the works and days of hands |
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That lift and drop a question on your plate; |
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Time for you and time for me, |
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And time yet for a hundred indecisions, |
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And for a hundred visions and revisions, |
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Before the taking of a toast and tea. |
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In the room the women come and go |
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Talking of Michelangelo. |
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And indeed there will be time |
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To wonder, “Do I dare?” and, “Do I dare?” |
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Time to turn back and descend the stair, |
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With a bald spot in the middle of my hair— |
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(They will say: “How his hair is growing thin!”) |
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My morning coat, my collar mounting firmly to the chin, |
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My necktie rich and modest, but asserted by a simple pin— |
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(They will say: “But how his arms and legs are thin!”) |
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Do I dare |
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Disturb the universe? |
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In a minute there is time |
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For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse. |
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For I have known them all already, known them all: |
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Have known the evenings, mornings, afternoons, |
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I have measured out my life with coffee spoons; |
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I know the voices dying with a dying fall |
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Beneath the music from a farther room. |
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So how should I presume? |
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And I have known the eyes already, known them all— |
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The eyes that fix you in a formulated phrase, |
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And when I am formulated, sprawling on a pin, |
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When I am pinned and wriggling on the wall, |
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Then how should I begin |
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To spit out all the butt-ends of my days and ways? |
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And how should I presume? |
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And I have known the arms already, known them all— |
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Arms that are braceleted and white and bare |
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(But in the lamplight, downed with light brown hair!) |
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Is it perfume from a dress |
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That makes me so digress? |
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Arms that lie along a table, or wrap about a shawl. |
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And should I then presume? |
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And how should I begin?
. . . . . . . .
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Shall I say, I have gone at dusk through narrow streets |
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And watched the smoke that rises from the pipes |
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Of lonely men in shirt-sleeves, leaning out of windows?… |
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I should have been a pair of ragged claws |
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Scuttling across the floors of silent seas.
. . . . . . . .
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And the afternoon, the evening, sleeps so peacefully! |
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Smoothed by long fingers, |
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Asleep … tired … or it malingers, |
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Stretched on the floor, here beside you and me. |
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Should I, after tea and cakes and ices, |
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Have the strength to force the moment to its crisis? |
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But though I have wept and fasted, wept and prayed, |
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Though I have seen my head (grown slightly bald) brought in upon a platter, |
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I am no prophet—and here’s no great matter; |
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I have seen the moment of my greatness flicker, |
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And I have seen the eternal Footman hold my coat, and snicker, |
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And in short, I was afraid. |
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And would it have been worth it, after all, |
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After the cups, the marmalade, the tea, |
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Among the porcelain, among some talk of you and me, |
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Would it have been worth while, |
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To have bitten off the matter with a smile, |
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To have squeezed the universe into a ball |
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To roll it toward some overwhelming question, |
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To say: “I am Lazarus, come from the dead, |
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Come back to tell you all, I shall tell you all”— |
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If one, settling a pillow by her head, |
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Should say: “That is not what I meant at all; |
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That is not it, at all.” |
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And would it have been worth it, after all, |
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Would it have been worth while, |
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After the sunsets and the dooryards and the sprinkled streets, |
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After the novels, after the teacups, after the skirts that trail along the floor— |
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And this, and so much more?— |
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It is impossible to say just what I mean! |
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But as if a magic lantern threw the nerves in patterns on a screen: |
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Would it have been worth while |
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If one, settling a pillow or throwing off a shawl, |
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And turning toward the window, should say: |
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“That is not it at all, |
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That is not what I meant, at all.”
. . . . . . . .
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No! I am not Prince Hamlet, nor was meant to be; |
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Am an attendant lord, one that will do |
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To swell a progress, start a scene or two, |
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Advise the prince; no doubt, an easy tool, |
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Deferential, glad to be of use, |
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Politic, cautious, and meticulous; |
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Full of high sentence, but a bit obtuse; |
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At times, indeed, almost ridiculous— |
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Almost, at times, the Fool. |
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I grow old … I grow old … |
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I shall wear the bottoms of my trousers rolled. |
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Shall I part my hair behind? Do I dare to eat a peach? |
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I shall wear white flannel trousers, and walk upon the beach. |
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I have heard the mermaids singing, each to each. |
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I do not think that they will sing to me. |
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I have seen them riding seaward on the waves |
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Combing the white hair of the waves blown back |
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When the wind blows the water white and black. |
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We have lingered in the chambers of the sea |
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By sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown |
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Till human voices wake us, and we drown. |
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